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Got my Glad Rag pad today.  I only ordered one + 2 inserts so if I don't like it, I didn't waste too much money.  It was kinda expensive but in the long run, it will be worth it.  I assume.  Hope the Diva Cup gets here soon.

Don't ask me

Sometimes when I tweet things I just want them to be tweets, I don't need anyone to text me asking about it. Matt if I wanted to tell you I thought I was getting sick i would've texted you. 

menstruation nation

I've decided to start making the switch to eco-friendly menstrual products.  I've just ordered a holder & 2 inserts from GladRags and am planning on getting a Diva Cup as well.  I went with GladRags because it was cheapest & I've heard good things about them.  Depending on how well the Diva Cup works, I might get more pads, but I'm hoping that the cup won't need any back up protection.  I'm excited to try something new!

loneliness

I really shouldn't be left alone at night.  I get slightly depressed, I wonder why no one ever asks me to hang out, I count my friends on one hand.  My roommate pisses me off sometimes (most of the time) but I still like when she's home, then I'm not alone.  Ok, I'll amend this.  I don't mind being alone.  When I choose to be.  But right now, I am just covered in loneliness and it's eating me apart.

-M

oops

I have a crush on a manager at work. This isn't good.

anxiety

I don't usually claim anxiety, but I suppose I do have it to a degree.  I always have a nagging voice telling me that my friends don't really want to be my friends or that they only hang out with me because they feel bad for me and shit like that.  It's really upsetting but even as I write this I can't say 100% that I don't believe that voice.

I also get super anxious in cars when other people are driving.  I need to close my eyes; I always feel like they're going to crash.  I honestly don't know where this came from.  Probably just being in college where no one understands the rules of the road.  I feel bad because I even get nervous in my parents' car, even though they've both been driving for 30+ years and are pretty dang good at it.  The winter and snow definitely haven't helped anything.

-M

Post 1

I have trouble keeping a written journal, and I've had minor success with livejournal in the past, so maybe this will work out.

I have lots on my mind and I have so much trouble expressing it.  I starting drawing in a sketchbook that I had for a class but don't need anymore; it's nothing ~emotional~ right now but who knows, maybe I'll be the next van Gogh.  Poetry is also not a strong suit of mine, whenever I reread it I want to throw up from how terribly I put my words together.  Even this makes me uncomfortable.

The Words, Nerds, Turds title is kinda dumb but it's pretty much my whole life: quotes, geeky things, and pooping.  Also popping zits.  Just got one from my ear.

Anyway I'll probably incorporate those four things as well as food, stuff about my partner, beer...literally anything.  My tumblr is nekkidgrandma.tumblr.com if you hate yourself.

-M